i wish....

I wish I could go back to all those good times that i have spent till now and make them last longer...

I wish I could set right all the mistakes i have made till now.. maybe they would have altered the course of my life...

I wish i could be a kid again and go back scurrying around aimlessly with nothing to bother about...when getting a pack of colored pens from ma-papa meant the world to me..

I wish I had valued certain relationships more and a few others less... so that at least all would have got what they truly deserved..

I wish I had learnt how to fake emotions and feelings... so that eventually I wouldn't have hurt myself..

I wish I was able to control my thoughts and throw the unwanted ones out right away..

... but i also know that all this was not meant to be... all i can do it..try and find ways to live in way that fast forward 5 years...I am not sitting and writing something as cryptic as this...